The End of the Semester and the Difficulties of Writing

I’M BACK!!!

So it’s been a long time since I have been on WordPress and I have come to terms with the fact that sometimes there will be long periods of time that I go without blogging here. But thank goodness I am back for the next few weeks at least.

You know what that means? The semester is finally over! And boy was it a rough one. Between the classes, the clubs, and all the stuff I had going with my church groups I have managed to stay rather busy. But at least my grades, that were posted today, turned out pretty darn well.

So now that I am done with my first semester of my senior year you might be wondering what I am going to be up to for the next 5 weeks of my Winter Break.  Well I am going to be a hermit….or a Hobbit if that imagery is better for you. I plan on being a home-body, catching up on sleep, and semi-preparing some stuff for next semester. As well as spend some much needed time with the family.

But that is not all!

For those of you who have been reading my sporadic posts, I will FINALLY be working on my book. Which of course has been put on the back-burner for a while now because of school. Throughout this semester, I was able to meet/email two wonderful published authors who gave me some great advice on how to write novels. And it has helped out a lot! I have currently written around 5,000 words (12 regular sized pages/two chapters worth). And it’s going pretty well, but there are a few things that I have found that keep popping up in my subconscious that I have now termed my “Difficulties with Writing”.

1. Procrastination – I keep putting off my writing time and saying I will get to it later.

2. Am I Good Enough?- I keep doubting that I am a good enough writer. I keep wondering if anyone would read the “rubbish” I am putting onto the pages I am writing.

These two problems are what I will be tackling over the next few weeks. I am going to stop procrastinating and make myself write down all of this story that has been spinning around in my head for about a year and I am going to stop doubting myself. I am interested in where this story is going and no matter if it gets published or not I want to see what I end up with. I at least have one dedicated reader who is proof reading for me. And another one who is just now starting to read what I have written. So even if it’s a story not many eyes will end up seeing I want to prove to myself that I can accomplish this task.Even if it is slightly intimidating.  I will make sure to update my progress on here, so everyone can see how I am fairing!

I hope everyone’s semester went well!

Talk to you soon!

Nicole 😀

The Art of Being Awkward

We all have those horrible moments in our lives where the situation you find yourself in is so horrifying that you would rather curl up in a ball and disappear. These moments normally leave you feeling embarrassed, self-conscious, red-faced, and feeling like you might want to kick yourself for something you have said. Well I can happily say I have perfected the art of awkwardness. 🙂 Maybe it comes with the territory of being a nerd (and no I’m not your stereotypical nerd who stays inside all the time playing video games….I am a Horse Science major thank you very much) but man can I cause some awkward moments. And of course they all end up being with the opposite gender!  What is it about the opposite gender that makes us all embarrassed and clumsy (this goes both ways because guys can be just as awkward around girls!) Well here is what happened to me.

STORY TIME!

Awkward story one….

As some of you know I enjoy singing a lot. I’ll sing anywhere…in my car, in the shower, at church. So I’m in the Women’s Choir at my college and I was leaving rehearsal early Thursday so that I could get to my next class on time, because I’m technically not signed up for the Women’s Choir class period. I just love the class so much I decided to take it for no credit. Well anyway, I was feeling particularly cute that day. The weather felt like fall so I had some really cute knee-high boots on, which I had stuck my phone in for safe keeping during class, and an adorable shirt (and no it didn’t have anything to do with any fandoms on it). And I notice this rather cute guy standing in the door way. So first what do I do…..I open the door to leave and actually trip other the door I opened (don’t ask me how I did it…I’m just that skilled). He chuckled…I was embarrassed and tried to laugh it off as he nicely held the door open for me. Now comes the second awkward moment. About the time that I walked through the door and thanked him, my phone started buzzing and where is it…in my boot. So instead of stopping walking, I continue to walk and try to get my phone out but I’m so frazzled from the running into the door and trying to act cool about it, I can’t get my phone out. AWKWARD. This guy couldn’t help but grin as he complemented my on my nice boots once I had succeeded in retrieving my phone. And what was all I could think of saying…Thanks! He continued on to open the outside door for me and say “have a nice day” but I was so embarrassed I couldn’t help but laugh and wonder what in the world that guy must think of clumsy little me.

Awkward Story Number 2.

On this blog I have ranted a few times about how social media has gotten in the way of how we communicate to one another in a person-to-person way. But this blog will not have any ranting. Instead I will impart on you, my second sad tale of how awkward I am. So the one good thing about social media is it does give everyone a way to re-connect with old friends from high school and such. Well I decided to take advantage of this technology and contact an old friend whom we parted on bad terms. At the time we were friends we both had rather bad influences for friends and that brought out the worst in us. Anyway, so I Facebook messages him and surprisingly he responded rather quickly and we talked for a little while.But it soon got awkward. He was polite and so was I and we were both happy to reconnect but at the end of the conversation I gave him my number and said we should talk more and catch up sometime soon. AWKWARD. I think I rushed into that one a little too blindly, because we have yet to talk and that was last week sometime. I guess I could have handled that one a little more smoothly.

So what is it about guy and girls that makes us so awkward around each other. Because I know from experience that when I head into a situation I have it all planned out that I am going to act cool and nonchalant. But I of course end up tripping on an invisible object, running into the door, and dropping all of my books at the same time while stuttering out a hello or being completely silent (I’m not speaking from experience or anything here). And you always think in High School that once you get into College it will all get so much better, but believe me it doesn’t. So I guess I need to just cool my jets and wait for someone just as clumsy as me to come tripping in the door after me (pun-intended) 🙂

I hope you enjoyed my little insight into awkwardness even though the majority of this was me just telling a few rather entertaining stories now that I look back at them. 😀   On the news front. My writing has been going rather well. I have a few people who have agreed to proof read what I am writing. And to those people I just want to say thank you so much for volunteering…or letting me rope you into it. Whichever way you want to look at it.

For more current up dates on my writing process you can follow me on twitter or instagram. I tend to update those more frequently than my blog which I am completely sorry about, but I’m trying to get better at this.

Until Next Time!

Nicole 🙂

Save The Dome at CCC!

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As most of y’all know I am very involved in the church and we have a major campaign going. Central Christian Church was built in 1911so the building is 103 years old so needless to say it has its creaks and quirks. And an old building does wear down. After years of trying to patch the memorable gold dome up, it has now come to the point that it either needs to be repaired completely or taken off. So we started a capital campaign called ” Save the Dome” to raise money to completely redo the dome. Over the past couple of week, Disciples of Christ on Campus, our college ministry has been blanketing Murfreesboro and picking up donations for a yard sale.
Because what better way is there to raise money than to have a large yard sale.

There was not a shortage of donations to be found. We have a large painting collection, a huge coca cola collection, as well as clothes, house wares, and a large book collection!

We are trying to spread the word to everyone in Murfreesboro about our sale so that we can save our beloved dome that has been on our building for over 100 years.

So whether you are a book lover, looking for that perfect piece of furniture for house, or just want to drop by to grab a plate of barbeque that we will be selling for lunch (only $5). Please come and see us. We have amazing deals and let us know how you found out about our sale.

I absolutely love the church I’ve grown up in and who wouldn’t when you can explain that you go to the church with the big gold dome on the square! (Yes it is not a mosque).

So come by tommorow from 7am-12 and grab some deals and some grub!
404 East Main Street
Murfreesboro, TN 37130

#SaveTheDome

God Bless,
Nicole Martin

Are We Too Connected?

So in the last couple of blogs I’ve done I’ve noticed that I comment quiet a bit about social media and the effects that it seems to be having on our generation. And I promise that I am not anti-technology but something happened recently that shocked me so much that I must share it.

Let me set the scene…

On Monday (last week), I was at my Mema’s eating lunch and my cousin was sitting across from me watching a YouTube video from one of the O2L guys. Apparently this guy has decided that because of personal reasons he is going to stop vlogging. The sad part of this video, which I over-heard, was that he had to express and plead with his viewers to not be mad or upset that he was quitting blogging. As if he needed to justice his reasons and tell his fans not to hate him and do anything rash just because he wasn’t going to post anymore. What happened next was even more astonishing. Not only did my cousin cry, rather a lot, the fact that this guy wasn’t blogging anymore actually made her very depressed for the whole day.

I find this reaction to be very strange. Well to me anyway. I mean I get emotionally involved with the books I read and the movies I watch but overall I know that it’s not the end of the world when the story ends. And my best-friend and I are totally obsessed with certain actors who might have the initials of TH and BC :)!  Yet if they decided to stop acting we wouldn’t start freaking out like so many of the girls have done over this O2L thing. The reactions, all over the internet, about this boy not vlogging anymore is crazy. There are a lot of tweens and young adults who are genuinely upset and I wanted to make a point out of this…

IT’S NOT THE END OF THE WORLD!

It seems that teens and young adults of our generation have become so immersed in  the internet and instant-gratification that they get detached from the reality that the people that blog, vlog, and post things on the internet are actually real people, with real events going on in their lives. They get so attached to the fact that these vloggers post every other day that they expect it to happen and when it doesn’t they get angry and upset. It just seems so strange.

I am not a hermit. I have certain vloggers that I watch such as the Vlogbrothers and the Skit Guys. But if they ended up not posting videos anymore I would understand. It’s their choices to post videos and invite the world into their lives and frankly if they stopped posting I would astonishingly have more time on my hands! Go figure! So maybe it’s time that the youth of our generation “unplug” from the internet and go socialize with some actual people who can hear you speak to them and will really talk back to what you say. Or at least get some perspective on the aspect of the internet and realize that when someone “takes a break” from vlogging or posting that there is normally a reason behind it and that you should respect their space and not freak out about it.

End of rant I swear 🙂

Now on to other news….

1. I met with a local author and received some pointers on writing! I have some great ideas and it seems to have helped me a lot with my book. It’s going well and I’m hoping to keep it going that way! It’s really exciting!!!

2. As for unplugging. My college ministry will be going on a Faith Building Weekend in two weeks! We are headed up to Defeated Creek camp grounds and are going to be camping there all weekend. It should be interesting since some of these girls have never slept out in a tent on the floor before, or at least would rather not. It will be a huge step for a lot of them. And we will be hiking and swimming and talking about God 🙂 It will be a great time hopefully! So keep us in your prayers.

Until Next Time!

 

God Bless!

Nicole M.

Post-July 4th…Post :)

So of course it’s me again….and it’s sad to say that it’s been quite a while since I last posted anything on my blog. But in my defense a lot has been happening!

First off, I successfully completed my Junior year of college. One more year and then it’s on to graduate school (such a scary thought!). I have also started and am half way through my summer internship which is at the Domestic Violence Shelter. I’ve been shadowing the child advocate and learning how to assist the children as they go through the difficult transitions in their lives. It’s been very interesting and I’ve been learning a lot.

But as we all know, this past weekend was Fourth of July weekend. A weekend that is supposed to be full of outdoor fun, parties, barbecue, fireworks, and people. Well, this weekend I found out that the saying  “you’re an old soul” actually applies to me. Here is my proof…

1. All I wanted to do this weekend was stay indoors, cuddle up on the couch and read

2. My parents wanted to go out and watch the fireworks in town…I seriously contemplated telling them I didn’t want to go so that I could fulfill #1

3. Once we arrived at said fireworks place, there were two kids (one 16 year-old and a 5 year-old) who were being so disrespectful to their grandma that I wanted to literally go up to them and slap them silly (not that I would actually do something like that)

4. Fireworks scare the crap out of me. I probably jumped 20 times throughout this weekend when I was surprised by unexpected fireworks

5. I don’t like how loud fireworks are.

So over all, I learned that I am either “an old soul” or just really lazy….I’ll let you decide.

 

On a totally different note. As some of you know I’ve been slowly but surely working on a novel and while I have completed my character development, setting, and tentative plot outline…. I am now completely stuck. It’s a weird feeling sitting in front of a blank piece of paper (whether it be on my computer or a legit piece of lined paper) feeling lost about how I really want to start my story. Now I know that nothing is set in stone and regardless what I write in the first draft more than likely it will change, but it is a weird and frightening feeling. It’s intimidating yet exciting at the same time. I have so many ideas I want to get down….the execution of it is just a little sketchy to me. So what am I going to do? Consult the experts! I’m planning on  emailing two authors I know to get some writing advise from them.   I’m hoping something that they say(email) will inspire me to take the plunge and just start writing. Starting something new is always a little strange at first but when you talk it out with someone and get advise sometimes things become a little easier. We shall see what happens in the coming week. Hopefully I will begin to first draft of my first ever novel this week.

 

There is a lot of new things happening in my life and I just have to say I am really excited to see where the road takes me! I’ll blog again soon!

God Bless!

Nicole M.

 

In the Name of the Nerd Show

This blog made me think of a very good friend of mine and me lol Nerds Forever!

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I have a confession.

Let me start with a little background information first, though.  As a kid in middle and high school, I watched a hodge podge of television programs.  I enjoyed all the shows I’d grown up watching–Spongebob Squarepants, Fairly Odd Parents, usually the stuff on Disney Channel–but I also liked older shows, like Family Guy, Tosh.0, and reality television like Dance Moms (I watch it for the dancing, I swear).

Since I came to college, though, I almost never watch television.  I basically can only watch things that are on the Internet or on DVD, at least at my own leisure.  Despite this, I’ve actually become dedicated to more specific television shows.

And here’s the confession:  They’re all kinda nerdy.

I think it started with Dr. Who.  During freshman year, my friend Julia had a prospective student come to stay overnight.  We didn’t really have a lot to…

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New Year Update and a Little Rant

So another year has come and gone. We are officially in 2014! I hope everyone accomplished their New Year’s Resolutions that they had in 2013….as for me I mega failed. Now I will go ahead and tell everyone what I hope to (but probably won’t) accomplish this year for my New Year’s Resolution (even though I’m a couple days late).

For 2014 I plan on doing a lot more than the previous year.

1. Read more books than I did in 2013 (you can keep an eye on my reading list page on this blog)

2. Work out every week, at least twice a week.

3. Post a blog at least once a week (which was a challenge last year as some of you noticed)

4. Finish my book! Which was actually started but never finished during National Novel Writing November.

This is all I can think of for the moment for my New Year’s Resolution but I will be sure to update more if I think of anything new.

NOW ON TO THE RANT!!!!

This evening I was at my Mema’s (which is what we call my Grandma here in the South) and I stole my little cousin’s cell phone, just to look around and see what she has been up to and partially just to annoy her. As I browsed through her Instagram and saw all the people she didn’t know who she was following, I was shocked to see how many of these people were posting “like me” pictures. It was almost like these kids were basing their self-worth based solely on the responses that they received through social media. This is what our younger generation is doing. They are so entrapped by social media and what others think about them. They are more concerned about how many Instagram, Twitter, or Facebook followers they have.

They don’t even know how to communicate without a textual device on their person!

There is something wrong with this picture. What happened to the “good-old days” when kids would stay out till dark playing outside. Or would rather read a novel than shoot up zombies on a video game consul. Now I do admit to liking to play video games, but kids these days are more interested in leveling up their character and less interested in what is going on in the world around them.

But this epidemic of gaining someone’s self-worth through social media isn’t just hitting the younger generation. Today’s college students have found an app that judges someone’s “hotness”. From what I understand you get to judge a person purely on their looks on whether they are “hot” or “not”….why in the world would we want to use an app like this?!?! It promotes the habit of judging someone purely on their looks and what clothing they have on. And frankly I must say this is an appalling thing. We are called to not judge others based on their ethnicity, race, religion, habits, sins, or looks and even if you aren’t a Christian like I am, this is a fundamentally kind thing we all come from different walks of life and have our own sins why would we want to judge them when most of the time we don’t want others judging us(well in most circumstances). We can’t judge a book by it’s color, and we can’t judge a person by what they look like. We also shouldn’t be pining for other’s affections or approval for the actions and choices we make in our day to day lives. We need to do what we have to do to make ourselves proud of our inner selves, not achieve other’s satisfactions.  Now I’m not saying I’m perfect, I know when I’m walking across campus I judge people on their looks and note who I find attractive but everyone does that in their minds….but taking it as far as an app to solely judge others is taking it a little to far.

Your family will always love you through thick and thin. And hopefully, if you haven’t already, you will find that one man or woman who will love you for who you are and what you stand for, but for now let’s cut this “social media acceptance” out of our lives. It’s ok to be on social media and use it to connect with friends and keep in touch, but these posts about “if you like me comment, if you love me like this picture” is ridiculous. God made us all in his image, and that image is glorious. I am officially done ranting, I have said my peace and I will now commence to step off of my “soap box”.

I want to hear other’s opinions on this subject! Please comment! I am now headed to finish some much needed chores…

Talk to ya’ll soon 🙂

Nicole